Valentines day

All that needs to be said is Happy Valentines.
I am one lucky girl.

Valentine's is a day to celebrate love.

What could be more worthy of celebration?

We have here a manifestation

Of passion and excitement,

true enjoyment of time spent

doing something you love

or being with a beautiful human who you love

Put nothing else above.

This is a marvelous gift.

Thank you saint valentine,

Will you be mine?

-Roo-

In sprit of sharing love, I'm going to post some meandering scrabble from a few months ago. I don't remember forming these sentences, but I honestly think it was because I wasn't thinking about what would come of this pen on paper action next... It was flowing out of me-- I felt a need to tell everyone who I loved, that I love them... that very second. I knew this was impossible because I was on thousands of feet in the air crammed into the last corner seat of a noisy airplane. But it didn't bother me, I just wrote it down... And now it is here, available for all those I am blessed enough to have in my life!

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Nov 25th (?) 2012

My fear of dying ascended simultaneously with the plane ~ taking flight ~ gaining speed and moving farther and farther from the original location. I once harbored my thoughts about dying - or summoned my imagination for what would take place internally if a crash insued.

Chaos! Disaster... 

I would leave this realm in a state of panic... fear... regret... 

But Today, my insides were accompanies with a serene peace surrounding a potential event that could leave me saying goodbye to what I have created over 23 years as a being in this human existence. I have created my place in the universe and it is sustained though physical exertion of oxygen & internal acceptance that I am alive.

But I somehow accepted death without receiving an invitation.

Have I done all I would like to?

--Of course not.--

Have I been fully immersed into the magical beauty I have been offered?

--At times, I have felt the answer to be yes. But often I reflect on different approaches that would enhance exuberance. There is much available growth that I have yet to take advantage of.--

Is there more for me to accomplish?

--Yes. But it's not what would make death so terrifying-- 

I think if you are scared to leave this earth, or maybe even if you aren't, there will always be unfinished business. But as long as it doesn't include tying up loose or stagnant ends with other humans, then we should be accepting of the business left undone. If you are at peace with all the relationships which define your existence, then it should be okay to slip out & onto what is next. 

Are the beautiful humans who you love aware of the irreplaceable mark they have left on your path?

Do they feel your love?

Could they still feel it if you disapeared?

Do they know their worth?

Refuse to leave any of these questions unanswered or as a negative response.

Let those you love LIVE with this knowledge. It is much more difficult to be at ease with life or death in a relationship you value doesn't have all the cards on the table. 

Get it out.

Open your heart.

Put Your words and energy... 

The remainder is a love letter- to all those who I love...

Share things. 

Fortunate cookie

The word 'word'

One of the greatest definitions of the word 'word' I have ever heard came from a Buddhism professor of mine. As he stood in front of us, using this man-made language to formulate an argument, he quickly fell into a look of perplexity. We were talking about something that couldn't be talked about.

"Words are useful fictions" 

Take it as you will, but it's the truth. Words exist only in our human reality. We are programmed to view words as necessary for communicating. It's hard at times but energy is the only genuine communicator. With this said, I value times of silence. In fact, I find it necessary to remain truly in tune with your inner consciousness. Give your mouth a break. You will still be heard-- and what you are communicating will ring louder than a word ever could.

Talk takes no effort.

Silence is difficult and only makes sense to those who

Notice the beauty when

Words

                  Disappear

Into the wall of dreams uncovered,

Reality discovered.

Ask Yourself ~

Am I Really Here?

Do I Exist In Fear?

Is There An Answer To My Thoughts?

I

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I write alot during vows of silence. Eventually I'll dig them up and post them... But until then--> 

Don't hold anything against any beautiful humans.
We know not of what lies behind the closed doors in each soul.
Ones actions are all we see.
Intentions are never crystal clear.
We memorize dates, times, numbers, WORDS.
But our memories are created subconsciously & weave a constant chain within.
We can smell a smell and it can shoot us back into the past quicker than a time warp.